This is a ranty, jumbly, unimportant post. Just warning you. lol
I love reading and I love blogging and I love the bookish community. That being said, lately I’ve been very blah about it all and it’s been making me feel all sorts of crazy things..such as quitting…which infuriates me because I’m not a quitter. Ok I quit playing lacrosse in 11th grade because I was sick of having a crazy coach who put trash cans on the field and made us run until we threw up…a mini Pat Summit practice it was called.
Anyways, I’ve lost that gusto for it all at the moment. I’m hoping it is just one of those slumps that happens. I pressure myself to read and blog and tweet even when I don’t necessarily want to all the time. Sometimes I’ll finish a book and really just don’t feel like reviewing it…I just want to let the book BE and not even try to put my thoughts to it. But then I stress because I won’t have a review so then I guilt myself into it. It’s CRAZY. Or sometimes I’ll get down about my blog and wish that it was something that it’s not. And again, that’s crazy. I LOVE my readers. I have some kickass people that come to my blog every freaking day and talk books with me and for that..I want to hug them all.
It reminds me of relationships. Everything is great..it’s all fireworks and lovey-dovey awesomeness and then, like a brick falling from 100 feet up, you are hit with the ending of that honeymoon phase. Everything seems like such a struggle and an annoyance and just so not as fun as before…it becomes a bit more work.
Anyways, I keep trying to figure out if it’s just a slump I’m going through or if I’m just not cut out for this consistent blogging thing…I never was good at keep a diary. So bloggers, especially ones who have been doing this a long time, have you ever been in a slump like this..like the “honeymoon phase” has worn off? How do you keep it fresh? How do you keep it fun and not put unnecessary pressure on yourself? I want to fall back in love with blogging again! Or at least definitely know that I am just not cut out for it in the long term. lol