Oh George. <3
I read a book recently and I had a hard time getting into it. I didn’t care to pick it up and I just didn’t feel connected. I decided to pick it up and just finish it and after reading for a bit I found myself totally into it.
But here’s the thing…I had to wonder if it was my fault or if I truly didn’t like the book at first. I had been at the beach and really just busy every weekend. I had just picked it up here and there and would get interrupted. There were a lot of external forces that were competing for my attention and possibly contributing to my disconnect with the book. It’s when I had a large junk of time to devote to it that I was really into it.
And I wonder this a lot when I read a book. Does my state of mind or the time I have to devote reading to it or even WHERE I’m reading it contribute to how I judge a book? Sometimes I’ll read a book and think, “I probably would have enjoyed that more if I wasn’t so stressed” or “If I was in the mood for that type of book I think I would have had a better experience”. So then I sit there and wonder if I really just didn’t LIKE a book because of the book itself (and no matter if I was sitting on a hammock in some tropical oasis would I ever in hell like this book) or would I have actually liked the book if my reading of it was more focused or if I wasn’t so upset about something. Do I need to say, “Book, it wasn’t you. It was me. I wasn’t emotionally there. I should have read you when I was more relaxed, etc.” Or do I need to just move on and say, “Book, straight up. It’s YOU. You suck. I can’t blame myself for your inadequacies.”
Now make no mistake, I don’t think this every time I dislike a book BUT there are some instances where I have to wonder when I start to reflect about my feelings of the book to write the review.
Does anybody else ever have this problem? Do you ever wonder your dislike for a book has to do with YOU or some other external force or did you just really not like the book and nothing could change that?