3 years is a long time. Maybe not to everyone but, for me, it is.
Photo taken by Margot as part of her fauxto series!
I was always the kind of girl that has commitment issues — to boyfriends up until I met Will, to my hair color, to my personal style, to any hobby for sure. I get bored easily. I struggle to find something I could see myself doing long term. I always want to feel different and have new experiences. I would get REALLY into something and then toss it to the side so soon — much like kids do with toys.
So what is it about book blogging that has kept me doing it for 3 years?
I mean, after all, I’m essentially doing the same thing over and over every day — reading and writing reviews, discussion posts or whatever silly thing I feel like. I could have stopped blogging and still be doing all the same things I do now — read, talk about books, meet authors. I never would have imagined, when I started this blog back in June 2010, that I would have done this for even more than a year. Do you know why I started a blog? I had been really into Goodreads since 2008 and active in groups but I wanted more. I always loved blogging (I kept a Xanga off and on…what what) and I figured it would be fun. I had thought about it for a while and soon I found myself in between jobs working very part time so I started The Broke and the Bookish with some Goodreads friends and then days later started this blog! I had time to devote to it at the time but I thought when I started working it would probably sit collecting cobwebs in Internetland.
So REALLY….why haven’t I abandoned this here blog?
My thoughts? The community. Hands down. Our little community of bloggers is not perfect. It fights. Turns against one another. Commits acts that hurt the rest of the community. It gets cranky, burnt out, jealous and sometimes forget what this whole book blogging thing is about. But this community? It is amazing. I’ve met some of my BEST FRIENDS here. I’m not talking about my BEST INTERNET FRIENDS. But people I text when bad things happen or when I’m feeling insecure or when I just need a laugh or honest opinion. And even beyond my best friends, this community is always here for me — no matter what it is. If I’m having a bad day, somebody is always willing to readily offer up a funny video. If I need advice about things I’m dealing with, there’s always someone ready to lend an ear. If I need to rejoice in even the smallest victory, you all are there ready to pop champagne with me.
– getting laid off (the same one you were with me for when I GOT) & those 3 weeks when Will lost his job
– dealing with years of grief after losing my mom
– planning a wedding (& gave kind words when somebody on a wedding board made me feel bad about how I wanted to honor my mom)
– getting married (and getting stress induced shingles!!)
– making the hard decision to let go of friends I’ve had for 10 years because it wasn’t right for me anymore
– my niece being born & all of the fun firsts of her life
– my dog passing away
– blogging slumps & feeling discouraged enough to quit
– blogging insecurities
– moving into our apartment
– a hurricane
– moving to WordPress
– starting a book club locally
-panic attacks, laughing attacks, spazzing attacks
– silly posts like book inspired dates, talking about my ass, the crimes I commit against books, & more
– the times when life was kicking me when I was down (not getting the job I wanted, our power going out for days, car accidents, our car getting broken into, etc)
There are many more countless things that I could name that you have seen me through in these past 3 years. That’s 1095 days, about 26,297 hours, or 94,670,778 seconds of my life you have been with me for. You’ve let me be open, honest and genuine. This blog is 100% me and I’ve never had a place where I felt so uninhibited and could be myself completely. This may be a book blog but it’s so much more to me — I write my opinions about books but I connect with people because of them. You’ve let me speak about things beyond the pages of the books I’m reading — even when I’m nervous about the reception more personal posts may have. You’ve respected the growth and the changes of this blog and put up with me even when I’m having some radio silence on the blog. I can feel secure in being silent sometimes because you are always here with open arms when I return.
I’ve wanted to quit — I won’t lie. Sometimes it’s because I’m being silly and angsty and think nobody likes me, sometimes I think my reviews suck, sometimes I’m too lazy or just plain tired, or sometimes I’m just plain old discouraged. When I think of all the free time I’d have if I quit, it’s nice for a moment, but then I just can’t even think about not having regular communication with you guys or being able to express my opinions or gush over the latest book I read. I feel like there would be this huge hole in my heart and, I honestly, can’t imagine my life without this part of me. It’s just so embedded in my life right now. I don’t know what year 4 will have for my blog — many changes I’m sure — but I’m confident that a bunch of you would stick with me! This blog has brought SO MANY AMAZING opportunities and experiences but the community, even on the worst days in our history, is always what keeps me here.
Now that I think about it, the question shouldn’t be “how have I kept up at this blogging thing for 3 years?” but rather “how the heck have you all stuck with me for this long?”
I’m sometimes flaky, ranty, whiny, inconsistent, an absolute mess, & this blog is far from being great. So really all I need to do today is thank you for those 1095 days/26,297 hours/94,670,778 seconds that you’ve stuck with me. It’s rare to find people that are willing to see everything inside of you — the good and the bad — and still be here in the end. I’m humbled. I’ve learned so much from you all and you’ve challenged me in ways I could never imagine. I’m constantly amazed by the kindness and support that overflows in this community and especially on this blog.
Thank you. For everything. Truly.
(I’m sorry I didn’t plan more to do something creative like for this blogoversary but as I opened the “new post window” this is what came to me)
And because I love you….a little giveaway! Nothing extravagant like I wish I could but a little somethin’!
What? One person will win their choice of 4 books out of the stack — Ashes on Waves (ARC), How Zoe Made Her Dreams (Mostly) Come True (paperback), Life After Theft (hardcover), The Elite (hardcover), Tumble & Fall (ARC), Belladonna (ARC), Undercurrent (ARC) The Chaos of Stars (ARC) and In The After (ARC)
– US & Canada only — sorry!
– Ends June 28th 2013 at 11:59pm