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Home | Young Adult | Before And After: First Kiss – A Guest Post With Jennifer Castle

Before And After: First Kiss – A Guest Post With Jennifer Castle

August 29, 2011 - Updated May 7, 2019 // 9 Comments

Today Jennifer Castle, author of The Beginning of After, is here on the blog to talk about her first kiss and that definitive “before and after” moment. I so related to this one as I was one who was among the last of my group of friends to have my first kiss. I finally thought I had “arrived”….although Jennifer’s  first kiss was much more interesting than mine!

In middle school, my friends and I watched “General Hospital” and scored the kisses, grossed out yet totally captivated. A few years later, most of the girls I knew had gone to first base, or at least claimed to, and us virgin-lips were left to watch the end of “Sixteen Candles” 400 times and simply imagine.

By 11th grade, it still hadn’t happened for me. My never-been-kissed status burned like a scarlet NK on my chest and I was sure it showed. The worst part was the wondering: Why couldn’t I have what everyone else does? Could guys see what I’ve always feared…that there was something kind of just a little bit wrong with me?

That year, my high school did a bi-annual exchange trip with a school outside of Paris. Thirty of us went over for three weeks, and on one of our last nights in France, there was a big farewell party. I hoped, like I always did, that something exciting might happen, so I put on my best something-could-happen outfit: neon turquoise top, black-and-turquoise pinstriped Sassoon jeans, and turquoise legwarmers. I mean, with a rig like that, how could something not?

And, actually, miraculously, something did.

Out of nowhere, one of the French guys — I knew who he was, but had dismissed him as way too hot for me — pulled me off the dance floor. We chatted haltingly in two languages and after a few minutes, a slow song came on and he led me back to the dance floor and…well, let’s just say that I found out quickly why a certain kind of kissing is named after a whole nation of people. When the song was done, he asked if we could go somewhere alone together. In my Day-Glo awesomeness, I ran for my life.

I wish I could spin this into the stuff of swoonable YA novels. But alas…my school group left France two days later and when the French kids came to visit us in New York, I was too consumed with embarrassment/excitement/fear to ever talk to him again. (Alexi, if by some bizarre chance you’re reading this, I’m sorry for being a freak. That could have been a fun few weeks.)

Still, my world had shifted. Of course, the rumors flew and I became known for a while as the Girl Who Hooked Up With A Smokin’ French Dude, and that looked much better on me than turquoise legwarmers. But the real change was this: Before that night, life just seemed like a movie starring everyone I knew — a movie I could only sit back and watch. Before that boy grabbed my hand so unexpectedly, I didn’t know what I had to offer and if anyone would ever in a million years want it.

After, I had my very own proof that random moments of magic do happen in life. That fantasy and fiction can indeed become reality. That my hand was worth taking somewhere. And once I knew that, it all started for me. Anything became possible, simply because I knew it was.

About The Beginning Of After:

The Beginning of AfterLaurel’s world changes instantly when her parents and brother are killed in a terrible car accident. Behind the wheel is the father of her bad-boy neighbor, David Kaufman, whose mother is also killed. Now, Laurel must navigate a new world in which she and her best friend grow apart, boys may or may not be approaching her out of pity, overpowering memories lurk everywhere, and Mr. Kaufman is comatose but still very much alive. Through it all, there is David, who swoops in and out of Laurel’s life and to whom she finds herself attracted against her better judgment. She will forever be connected to him by their mutual loss, a connection that will change them both in unexpected ways.


So guys, now that Jennifer has dished….tell me your first kiss stories!! 

Check out Book Labyrinth on August 31 for the next stop on the tour.

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  1. Meg says

    August 29, 2011 at 2:41 pm

    Love that story! And it was with a Frenchman, no less. Though I can feel the awkwardness that came later, it's still a great "first kiss" story.

    I was also one of the last in my group of friends to be kissed and just wanted to get it over with, more or less. My first smooch was with my "boyfriend" (you know, the guy I talked to on the phone and held hands with in the hallway at school) when I was 15. It was a quick peck on the lips just after Christmas, and I count it even though it happened very quickly and is sort of embarrassing to look back on now!

    I flipped out afterward and told everyone, "He kissed me!" I literally danced around like a Disney character and even made that proclamation to my dad. Awk-ward.

    Reply
  2. Cherry says

    August 29, 2011 at 3:49 pm

    Great story! Really enjoyed it. Haven't had my first kiss yet but looking forward to it.

    Reply
  3. Jules says

    August 29, 2011 at 4:24 pm

    Great guest post! 😀 I love her story and it's so much more interesting than mine too!

    Reply
  4. Chrisbails says

    August 29, 2011 at 7:13 pm

    Great post. The book looks great and would love to win. This is a new author for me and am always looking for new reads.
    My first kiss was with my older cousins best friend. His name was Wayne and I thought I was in love. A couple of months later I found out he kissed my other best friend cousin. I was not happy. That same cousin also ended up going out with another guy that I had dated. At the time I was so mad at her, but I love her to death and everyone makes mistakes.
    Thanks for the giveaway and the chance to win.
    christinebails@yahoo.com

    Reply
  5. Jamie says

    August 29, 2011 at 10:06 pm

    Chris — There isn't a giveaway for this one unfortunately. 🙁 I checked over the post to see if I put anything in there about a giveaway but I didn't see that I put anything. However, I will gladly send you my ARC if you email me with your address! 🙂

    Reply
  6. Jacinda (The Reading Housewives) says

    August 29, 2011 at 10:17 pm

    Such a cute first kiss story 🙂 Even though it can't be turned into a YA novel, lol.

    My first french kiss:
    I was in 6th or 7th grade (not 100% sure) and it happened on a trampoline with other people watching…not very romantic. I also later on that day, tried to dye my hair purple with kool-aid.

    Reply
  7. Safari Poet says

    August 29, 2011 at 10:40 pm

    Great guest post! Mine isn't worth telling.

    New follower!

    Reply
  8. Lynn Marie says

    August 30, 2011 at 2:37 am

    LOVE this story. This Post idea. ALL OF IT. Awesome job!

    My first kiss came at my cousins birthday party. She had it at the Moose Lodge (odd, I know) and her friend Billy and I quickly became friends. We slow danced and talked and then he asked me outside for "air". I was SO excited I even told my mom I was going out "For air" and she gave me a thumbs up. Yeah, my moms a rockstar. lol! After several minutes we came back in to find my cousin in tears. Apparently she was "in love" with him. Much to all of our surprise. After the lodge asked us to pray for the "moose children" I was more than ready to sneak another kiss with Billy and head home! (Yes, I know this makes me sound evil…but boys didn't like me 🙁 So this was kind of a big deal!)

    Reply
  9. thatcovergirl says

    August 31, 2011 at 4:19 am

    My first kiss was awful. It's so awful I can't even remember the guy's name (not that I was like some sort of lip slut or anything). Mr. Kiss and I shared homeroom together during the 7th grade, and he constantly teased and harassed me in that fun-loving, "I really like you" kind of way.

    On the last day of school before we were let out for the summer, the tension kind of bubbled up and we ended up making out right outside of homeroom. He just went for it, smashed me up against a wall, and you guessed it — drooled all over my face. He had one of those slobbery tongues but thank goodness he wasn't handsy. It was really, really gross.

    REALLY.

    Reply

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A book recommendation for all my historical fictio A book recommendation for all my historical fiction readers - The Briar Club by Kate Quinn. My holy grail historical author came through for me again. I can’t express how much I cared for and was pulled into the lives of these women living in a boardinghouse in DC during the McCarthy era just as much as I was racing to find out what happened in this house. The tension mounted as we got to what actually happened?? Masterful. Truly. #historicalfiction #bookrec #bookrecommendation #historicalfictionbooks @williammorrowbooks
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Book shopping is great but I can’t express how incredible building community is and indie bookshops do just that. I always wanted my own version of Cheers and, while not a bar where everybody knows my name, CBW was that place for me for almost a decade when I built community by going to YA book events there and moderating events. And while I am not able to get there as often as I was before I became a mom and we moved further away, It’s been so special to be able to share this beloved space with Riley.

These indie bookshops are so vital to our communities and I know everyone’s situation is different so this isn’t to shame but That Website can’t replace what can be created in these book spaces. Shop local when you are able! #indiebookshop #bookshop #bookshopping #independentbookstore
Ok technically I’m lying. My last read was technic Ok technically I’m lying. My last read was technically ATMOSPHERE but I feel like between my stories and my dedicated post to it, I’d rather talk about the book I read before it but didn’t update y’all on.

The Trouble With Anna — I enjoyed this delightful little historical romance about a heroine who is carving out her independence only to find out, when her grandfather dies, that he tied her inheritance/future to marrying her best friend’s brother — a not-so-happy surprise for both of them. I could understand why they both had some guardness/walls up and I enjoyed watching them slowly start to lower them.

Mayhem and the Mortal - I’m not too far into this romantic fantasy but it is one of my most anticipated that came out last month and I’m excited to dig in more.

Hamnet — I know, I know. For April I decided not to make a traditional TBR list of books I wanted to read but instead give myself some prompts to guide my reading (bc I’m overwhelmed with all my choices at hand) without feeling rigid. One of the prompts was to read a book I HAD TO BUY but is still unread. So going to finally get to it. Have you read this one or watched the movie?

What are you currently reading?
I had been waiting for the perfect time to read th I had been waiting for the perfect time to read this one after Random House sent me a finished copy as TJR is a longtime auto-buy author.  I found myself caught up in all the space joy and wonder and feeling quite parasocial about the Artemis crew...I decided now was the time.

I had no idea what I was getting into.

I hadn’t really known what it was about but I didn’t really need to given its TJR & the fact it was 1980s NASA & astronauts.

But this book was about love to me - romantic love, platonic love, familial love, love for something bigger than yourself, love for the person you are & are becoming, love in the face of obstacles, love for what lights you up.

Having been invested in real life astronauts & their journey lately really made this book even more vivid to me — seeing the bonds of the crew so deeply, feeling the fragility that exists while they are doing this wondrous & crazy thing that often still boggles my mind that we can do.

And, hardest to put into words, that feeling of awe in the expansive nature & capabilities of love & the universe that I felt when a husband named a crater after his late wife which doubly helped me understand how Joan & Vanessa felt looking back at earth.

It made me sob & feel everything about being a human so deeply basically from that Frances/Joan phone call at 86% of the way through until the final words. Like could not breathe.

*might be a tiny bit spoilery so beware:

I think the way she wrote this was so impactful bc we start out knowing something bad happens &it’s not even that far when we know that some of them def won’t make it back & some are alive in peril.

I was like “oof” when *it* happens early on. But each and every chapter where we learn more about these ppl & their relationships felt agonizing & I was retroactively grieving for them more deeply every turn of the page.

The hurt and grief just compounds from a moment that was sad from the jump to something that had dug in deep to me.

To know what happens right before this mission makes the mission control bits even more excruciating. Makes the peril a character is in hit even harder than just “oh that must be scary!”. 

I loved it. I needed it bad.
The theme of Q1 was “just go with it” — it being m The theme of Q1 was “just go with it” — it being my reading whims, quirks and troubles.

Interesting things:

1. January started out rough. I only read 1 physical book and leaned very heavy into audiobooks only. At first it was distressing that my brain -thanks to current events and their effect on my mind - couldn’t work out how to sit down and read with my eyeballs but I was like…let’s just roll with it and wait for it to pass. So I waited and enjoyed a ton of audiobooks.

2. I don’t think I’ve ever read so many thrillers and mysteries in a quarter. It’s a genre I love but I’m normally quite more balanced. However, it’s what I was craving and what my brain was tolerating so…I just went with it.

3. I have always been a reader led by my moods (both how I feel reading wise and personally). This quarter was FERAL. Like the most feral mood reading ever. I couldn’t even categorize it. I’d decide on one book enthusiastically and suddenly I was like…absolutely not that.

4. I read way less fantasy than normal which was WEIRD but I felt like I also wasn’t surprised given my brain space.

5. I really started to resent people even more who said “it’s a book account stop talking about politics etc”. Babe, I’m a human who gives a shit but ALSO this has and always been an account of MY reading life. And my reading life was profoundly affected by the things that were going on in this country. Like they have been before - whether it’s been current events or things like having a kid, being depressed, slumps, etc.

6. I return to the fact that, for me, I am happiest when I pay attention to my reading whims. The end of the month I had a very specific reading mood (wanted time travel element but not a heavy time travel book) and I decided to pick up A Rip Through Time at the end of the month and I’m now halfway through book 4. Having the best time ever!!! 

Anyways, tell me how your reading life was in Q1! Fave books? Biggest surprises??
New historical fiction books on my radar for April New historical fiction books on my radar for April and I feel like there is quite a bit of variety. Any of these on your TBR? #historicalfictionbooks #historicalfiction #newbookrelease #newbookreleases
Being someone who reads based on their ever shifti Being someone who reads based on their ever shifting reading moods (sometimes very feral) makes library holds and tbrs very hard. It’s the worst when 5 weeks ago I would have gobbled the library hold up but now when the hold comes in I’m like…I think not. #readersofinstagram #readerproblems #librarylife #librarybooks #moodreader

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