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My Top 11 Books of 2020

December 20, 2020 - Updated March 13, 2024 // 15 Comments

WELL. 2020…has been a YEAR, amirite? It’s honestly a miracle that I read anything at all since March but I’ve managed to get some books read.

It’s basically a miracle and we are going to clap wildly for anything we did this year! Extra applause for the fact I could even compile a best books of 2020 list because it was DIFFICULT to read at points this year.

Last year’s reading was all about learning how to work reading back into my life after having Riley (here’s my tips for ways to find more time to read) but this year was all about finding the space to read (and not read) in the midst of such a hard year — pandemic, mentally struggling and health issues flaring up.

While this reading season has been full of periods of not reading (and doing lots of binge watching instead) it also has become a year in which I’ve learned to be okay with that. Books will always be there for when my brain can handle them.

I’m thankful for the books I’ve read this year and honestly I’ve read some AMAZING books so it’s really been a good reading year for me — despite having a hard time reading sometimes during this.

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BEST BOOKS OF 2020

While there is still plenty of time for me to read a new favorite book this year, I’m locking it in now. I will come back and add if I do somehow read a new fave between now and then!

The Vanishing Half by Brit Bennett

I can confidently say this is one of the best books I’ve read in 2020. Like hands down. Number one pick.  Which if you know me…is hard. I am not good at choosing just one. There’s always a caveat. NOT THIS TIME.

Powerful and moving story about sisterhood, race, privilege and identity. The hype was real on this one but it blew me away. Also…the writing was *chef kiss*.

FIND IT: AMAZON | BOOKSHOP.ORG

The Invisible Life of Addie LaRue by V.E. Schwab

This book takes the cake for FAVORITE and one of the BEST books I read this year. I was so swept up in Addie’s story that spanned through centuries and continents.

Superb writing, made me sob because THE FEELINGS this one gave me and as an Enneagram 4 I swear this book combined my greatest fears and biggest desires in one book.

FIND IT: AMAZON | BOOKSHOP.ORG

Book Cover for Grown by Tiffany D. Jackson. Cover is mustard yellow background with a Black girl with short hair and big gold hoop earrings

Grown by Tiffany D. Jackson

This is definitely one of the most hard hitting and page-turning book I read this year. I honestly can’t stop thinking about it still. Tiffany D. Jackson’s books ALWAYS do that to me.

It deftly tackles SO MUCH throughout the story of a young girl being preyed upon and abused in her search for stardom by a famous singer who has promised her a career.

FIND IT: AMAZON | BOOKSHOP.ORG

The House in the Cerulean Sea by TJ Klune

Probably in my top 3 of the year. One I will be recommending to EVERYONE — even if you don’t normally read fantasy.

This book was a DELIGHT. Just an absolute delight.  It’s about found family and seeing people who for they really are.

FIND IT: AMAZON | BOOKSHOP.ORG

Book cover for Clap When You Land

Clap When You Land by Elizabeth Acevedo

I normally do not do books in verse. I just haven’t been able to get into many but this one….brilliant.

It’s about two girls who lose their father on a flight that crashed (based on a real event I had no idea about!) and the reckoning of the secrets exposed after. Beautiful, crushing writing and an amazing YA audiobook – one of my top recommendations actually!

I can’t recommend this enough — even if you think you wouldn’t like novels in verse!

FIND IT: AMAZON | BOOKSHOP.ORG

Book cover for Take A Hint Dani Brown

Take A Hint, Dani Brown by Talia Hibbert

I LOVED Get A Life, Chloe Brown and I couldn’t wait for Dani’s book. These sisters have my heart!! If you are looking for a fantastic romance, this book was a delight! This faux romance is full of amazing chemistry but also just such richly written characters whose struggles feel so real.

FIND IT: AMAZON | BOOKSHOP.ORG

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My Dark Vanessa book cover -

My Dark Vanessa by Kate Elizabeth Russell

Perhaps one of the hardest books I’ve ever read. I don’t think I’ve ever had quite such a visceral reaction to a book before.

Felt sick to my stomach quite often honestly as I read this book about the grooming and affair of a young girl and her teacher and the reckoning she has as an adult when someone reaches out to her with the same experience considering she always thought it was love and something special between them.

Raw, unflinching and unapologetically tough read but an incredible nuanced and important one, if you can stomach it, as it so deftly exposes the ways (and ease) in which society allows these things to happen, the complexity of trauma and things like the #metoo movement for victims.

FIND IT: AMAZON | BOOKSHOP.ORG

Book cover of Beach Read by Emily Henry -- illustrated cover yellow background with two illustrations of people reading on beach towels

Beach Read by Emily Henry

This book made me so happy while also making me cry! A delightful romcom about two writers (one a romance writer, the other a literary fiction writer) who spend the summer together trying to get out of their writing funks by writing in each other’s genre while also working through some big life things (namely grief and secrets!).

FIND IT: AMAZON | BOOKSHOP.ORG

You May Also Like: The Must-Have Beach Reads For This Year

Book cover for Long Bright River

Long Bright River by Liz Moore

THIS BOOK! Probably one of the biggest surprises for me. I picked it up on a whim at a conference last year and definitely one of the best books I’ve read in 2020.

I thought it was going to be a police procedural/suspense novel (something I don’t read often) but it was SO MUCH MORE.

 It was that for sure but it also was a literary fiction family drama that was gritty and emotional. So incredible how suspenseful it was but also so so compelling how the family story was weaved in there.

I didn’t expect to be so moved by it. As an aside, I did this in both print and audio and the audio was FANTASTIC.

If you liked Long Bright River, I also highly recommend my list of favorite literary mysteries and thrillers!

FIND IT: AMAZON | BOOKSHOP.ORG

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Book Cover For Oona Out Of Order by Margarita Montimore (blue cover with woman's face not quite lined up)

Oona Out Of Order by Margarita Montimore

I haven’t found a time travel book I’ve loved as much as The Time Traveler’s Wife up until this one! They are SOOOOO SOOOO different but I was really swept up in the same way.

It’s about a woman who lives her life out of order — instead of turning 19 on the eve of her birthday she suddenly wakes up as her 51 year old self.

Innovative and completely captivating!! It was one of my most anticipated books for 2020 and it lived up to my hopes — check out my review of Oona Out of Order!

FIND IT: AMAZON | BOOKSHOP.ORG

Book cover for When You Were Everything

When You Were Everything by Ashley Woodfolk

This quiet hidden gem of a YA novel is one of my favorite books of 2020 for sure and one that I’m sad isn’t getting more attention!

This one sliced through my heart in such a visceral way! An intimate look into a crumbling friendship and the unparalleled loss felt after plus the pain and joy in making space in our wounded hearts for new friendships as we continue to let go of what was.

Explored so many complexities of friendship and friend breakups in all their messy glory showing the faults in both parties.

FIND IT: AMAZON | BOOKSHOP.ORG

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What have YOUR best or your favorite books of 2020 so far??

P.S. Have you seen this list of upcoming book to movie adaptations?  Or maybe you need some light and easy books to read?

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  1. Your Name says

    August 7, 2020 at 4:53 pm

    I’m absolutely loving your list and bookmarking almost everything you mentioned to read. I’ve read A Man Called Ove – and love, love, love! Continue to read more from Bachman – he will not disappoint you! I also loved Gat a Life Chloe Bron but was on the fence about reading the follow up //// now I’m convinced I need to get it!

    Reply
    • Jamie says

      August 8, 2020 at 9:56 am

      Oh I read My Grandmother Asked Me To Tell You She’s Sorry and loved that one a few years ago! What is your fave of his?

      Reply
  2. Ethan says

    August 7, 2020 at 7:26 pm

    Long Bright River was one that I read at the start of the whole pandemic. I’m surprised I was able to get as much out of that dark book as I did at the time, but it is one of my favorites so far too!

    Reply
    • Jamie says

      August 8, 2020 at 9:55 am

      Oh wow! yeah I read it in January before everything happened. I don’t know that I would have been able to handle it in the beginning of the pandemic — though just shows what a captivating book it is!

      Reply
  3. Sam@wlabb says

    August 7, 2020 at 8:23 pm

    I 5-starred When You Were Everything. It was magnificent and friend breakups are such a thing which need books dedicated to it. Woodfolk did an incredible job with that book. (Love and Other Words is one of my favorites as well)

    Reply
    • Jamie says

      August 8, 2020 at 9:54 am

      AHH THAT BOOK. Definite 5 star book. It just really took ahold of me — probably because it was SO true in my life with how this stuff happens with friendships.

      Reply
  4. Kristina says

    August 8, 2020 at 12:00 am

    Ohhh so many of thoses are on my wanting to read list!! I’m excited to get to them eventually, knowing how much you liked them 🥰

    Also love the initiative of adding an indie bookstore’s link too! Xx

    Reply
    • Jamie says

      August 8, 2020 at 9:54 am

      Eee let me know when you get to any of them what you think!

      And yes..I’ve always linked to Indiebound but I feel like it wasn’t the most user friendly so as soon as Bookshop came around I decided to switch but wanted to really call it out because people might not know what they are yet!

      Reply
  5. Lisa @ Reading, Writing, and Random Musings says

    August 8, 2020 at 1:44 pm

    Long Bright River, Beach Read, and The Vanishing Half would totally make my top books of 2020 so far list! Beach Read was the perfect read for me this summer when pandemic living started to get to me a bit! I also loved A Man Called Ove. I haven’t read the others, but seeing the overlap in our reading, I’m adding to my TBR!

    Reply
    • Jamie says

      August 9, 2020 at 11:34 am

      We do seem to love a lot of the same ones!! What are some of your faves that aren’t on my list? Clearly I need to add some books you loved to my list!

      Reply
  6. Jade @ Reading with Jade says

    August 10, 2020 at 5:09 am

    I don’t usually read books in verse either, but also loved Clap When You Land – I feel like being written in verse added to the beauty of the story. I has definitely intrigued me to other books I’ve put off reading due to being in verse also.

    Great list! I hope the rest of the year treats you to more wonderful books also!

    Reply
  7. liz says

    August 10, 2020 at 4:38 pm

    I usually don’t like books in verse either, and I ended up listening to Clap when you land instead of reading it, and it was amazing. I think it really helped create this beautiful performance, and I honestly didn’t even focus on the verse.

    Reply
  8. Erica Robyn says

    August 24, 2020 at 10:41 am

    AWESOME list!

    Reply
  9. Mishma @ Chasing Faerytales says

    December 27, 2020 at 4:47 am

    Thank you for these recs! I can’t believe I still haven’t read Addie LaRue considering what a big Schwab fan I am – I have multiple copies sent/shipped to my college apartment while I am still home haha – but I am super excited to get to it soon. Clap When You Land is def in my TBR, I loved The Poet X, and I saw the audiobook on Scribd and might try that soon.
    Happy Holidays Jamie!

    Reply
  10. Jade @ Reading with Jade says

    January 25, 2021 at 3:30 pm

    Great list! I totally agree with Clap When You Land – I’ve always been put off by novels in verse, but having read this book I now want to read ALL the novels in verse. Ha!

    Happy reading in 2021!

    Reply

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A book recommendation for all my historical fictio A book recommendation for all my historical fiction readers - The Briar Club by Kate Quinn. My holy grail historical author came through for me again. I can’t express how much I cared for and was pulled into the lives of these women living in a boardinghouse in DC during the McCarthy era just as much as I was racing to find out what happened in this house. The tension mounted as we got to what actually happened?? Masterful. Truly. #historicalfiction #bookrec #bookrecommendation #historicalfictionbooks @williammorrowbooks
Made a fun family day out of Independent Bookstore Made a fun family day out of Independent Bookstore Day and hit up new faves @maveybooks and what used to be my second home when I lived closer @childrensbookworld which was so nice to be back home 🥹🥹

Book shopping is great but I can’t express how incredible building community is and indie bookshops do just that. I always wanted my own version of Cheers and, while not a bar where everybody knows my name, CBW was that place for me for almost a decade when I built community by going to YA book events there and moderating events. And while I am not able to get there as often as I was before I became a mom and we moved further away, It’s been so special to be able to share this beloved space with Riley.

These indie bookshops are so vital to our communities and I know everyone’s situation is different so this isn’t to shame but That Website can’t replace what can be created in these book spaces. Shop local when you are able! #indiebookshop #bookshop #bookshopping #independentbookstore
Ok technically I’m lying. My last read was technic Ok technically I’m lying. My last read was technically ATMOSPHERE but I feel like between my stories and my dedicated post to it, I’d rather talk about the book I read before it but didn’t update y’all on.

The Trouble With Anna — I enjoyed this delightful little historical romance about a heroine who is carving out her independence only to find out, when her grandfather dies, that he tied her inheritance/future to marrying her best friend’s brother — a not-so-happy surprise for both of them. I could understand why they both had some guardness/walls up and I enjoyed watching them slowly start to lower them.

Mayhem and the Mortal - I’m not too far into this romantic fantasy but it is one of my most anticipated that came out last month and I’m excited to dig in more.

Hamnet — I know, I know. For April I decided not to make a traditional TBR list of books I wanted to read but instead give myself some prompts to guide my reading (bc I’m overwhelmed with all my choices at hand) without feeling rigid. One of the prompts was to read a book I HAD TO BUY but is still unread. So going to finally get to it. Have you read this one or watched the movie?

What are you currently reading?
I had been waiting for the perfect time to read th I had been waiting for the perfect time to read this one after Random House sent me a finished copy as TJR is a longtime auto-buy author.  I found myself caught up in all the space joy and wonder and feeling quite parasocial about the Artemis crew...I decided now was the time.

I had no idea what I was getting into.

I hadn’t really known what it was about but I didn’t really need to given its TJR & the fact it was 1980s NASA & astronauts.

But this book was about love to me - romantic love, platonic love, familial love, love for something bigger than yourself, love for the person you are & are becoming, love in the face of obstacles, love for what lights you up.

Having been invested in real life astronauts & their journey lately really made this book even more vivid to me — seeing the bonds of the crew so deeply, feeling the fragility that exists while they are doing this wondrous & crazy thing that often still boggles my mind that we can do.

And, hardest to put into words, that feeling of awe in the expansive nature & capabilities of love & the universe that I felt when a husband named a crater after his late wife which doubly helped me understand how Joan & Vanessa felt looking back at earth.

It made me sob & feel everything about being a human so deeply basically from that Frances/Joan phone call at 86% of the way through until the final words. Like could not breathe.

*might be a tiny bit spoilery so beware:

I think the way she wrote this was so impactful bc we start out knowing something bad happens &it’s not even that far when we know that some of them def won’t make it back & some are alive in peril.

I was like “oof” when *it* happens early on. But each and every chapter where we learn more about these ppl & their relationships felt agonizing & I was retroactively grieving for them more deeply every turn of the page.

The hurt and grief just compounds from a moment that was sad from the jump to something that had dug in deep to me.

To know what happens right before this mission makes the mission control bits even more excruciating. Makes the peril a character is in hit even harder than just “oh that must be scary!”. 

I loved it. I needed it bad.
The theme of Q1 was “just go with it” — it being m The theme of Q1 was “just go with it” — it being my reading whims, quirks and troubles.

Interesting things:

1. January started out rough. I only read 1 physical book and leaned very heavy into audiobooks only. At first it was distressing that my brain -thanks to current events and their effect on my mind - couldn’t work out how to sit down and read with my eyeballs but I was like…let’s just roll with it and wait for it to pass. So I waited and enjoyed a ton of audiobooks.

2. I don’t think I’ve ever read so many thrillers and mysteries in a quarter. It’s a genre I love but I’m normally quite more balanced. However, it’s what I was craving and what my brain was tolerating so…I just went with it.

3. I have always been a reader led by my moods (both how I feel reading wise and personally). This quarter was FERAL. Like the most feral mood reading ever. I couldn’t even categorize it. I’d decide on one book enthusiastically and suddenly I was like…absolutely not that.

4. I read way less fantasy than normal which was WEIRD but I felt like I also wasn’t surprised given my brain space.

5. I really started to resent people even more who said “it’s a book account stop talking about politics etc”. Babe, I’m a human who gives a shit but ALSO this has and always been an account of MY reading life. And my reading life was profoundly affected by the things that were going on in this country. Like they have been before - whether it’s been current events or things like having a kid, being depressed, slumps, etc.

6. I return to the fact that, for me, I am happiest when I pay attention to my reading whims. The end of the month I had a very specific reading mood (wanted time travel element but not a heavy time travel book) and I decided to pick up A Rip Through Time at the end of the month and I’m now halfway through book 4. Having the best time ever!!! 

Anyways, tell me how your reading life was in Q1! Fave books? Biggest surprises??
New historical fiction books on my radar for April New historical fiction books on my radar for April and I feel like there is quite a bit of variety. Any of these on your TBR? #historicalfictionbooks #historicalfiction #newbookrelease #newbookreleases
Being someone who reads based on their ever shifti Being someone who reads based on their ever shifting reading moods (sometimes very feral) makes library holds and tbrs very hard. It’s the worst when 5 weeks ago I would have gobbled the library hold up but now when the hold comes in I’m like…I think not. #readersofinstagram #readerproblems #librarylife #librarybooks #moodreader
I love when I just absolutely nail it on the first I love when I just absolutely nail it on the first try when trying to satisfy a super specific reading mood - Kelley Armstrong’s A Rip Through Time definitely nailed what I wanted. Time travel but didn’t really want too time travely…just more of a vibe or catalyst for some fun. If you love a good mystery, some time travel shenanigans and a great cast of characters, I highly recommend this book. #bookrec #bookrecommendation #bookreview #mysterybooks #historicalmystery #kelleyarmstrong
🌸 Some romances on my personal radar for April. 🌸 🌸 Some romances on my personal radar for April. 🌸

Beyond excited for a new Kate Clayborn, Kasie west, rainbow Rowell, Jenn Bennett and Beth O’Leary - I’ve enjoyed these authors in the past.

My historical loving heart is most excited for The Duke and How To Fake It In Society.

I love an emotional romance so The Art of Loving You is high on my list plus I’ve heard great things about this author.

I’m intrigued by Fast Lane especially since it’s being adapted for a tv series. I’m seeing comparisons to Elle Kennedy’s Off Campus series which I did love!

Which new romance books are piquing your interest or are on your TBR? #romancebooks #newbooks #romancebooktok #romancereader
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A book recommendation for all my historical fictio A book recommendation for all my historical fiction readers - The Briar Club by Kate Quinn. My holy grail historical author came through for me again. I can’t express how much I cared for and was pulled into the lives of these women living in a boardinghouse in DC during the McCarthy era just as much as I was racing to find out what happened in this house. The tension mounted as we got to what actually happened?? Masterful. Truly. #historicalfiction #bookrec #bookrecommendation #historicalfictionbooks @williammorrowbooks
Made a fun family day out of Independent Bookstore Made a fun family day out of Independent Bookstore Day and hit up new faves @maveybooks and what used to be my second home when I lived closer @childrensbookworld which was so nice to be back home 🥹🥹

Book shopping is great but I can’t express how incredible building community is and indie bookshops do just that. I always wanted my own version of Cheers and, while not a bar where everybody knows my name, CBW was that place for me for almost a decade when I built community by going to YA book events there and moderating events. And while I am not able to get there as often as I was before I became a mom and we moved further away, It’s been so special to be able to share this beloved space with Riley.

These indie bookshops are so vital to our communities and I know everyone’s situation is different so this isn’t to shame but That Website can’t replace what can be created in these book spaces. Shop local when you are able! #indiebookshop #bookshop #bookshopping #independentbookstore
Ok technically I’m lying. My last read was technic Ok technically I’m lying. My last read was technically ATMOSPHERE but I feel like between my stories and my dedicated post to it, I’d rather talk about the book I read before it but didn’t update y’all on.

The Trouble With Anna — I enjoyed this delightful little historical romance about a heroine who is carving out her independence only to find out, when her grandfather dies, that he tied her inheritance/future to marrying her best friend’s brother — a not-so-happy surprise for both of them. I could understand why they both had some guardness/walls up and I enjoyed watching them slowly start to lower them.

Mayhem and the Mortal - I’m not too far into this romantic fantasy but it is one of my most anticipated that came out last month and I’m excited to dig in more.

Hamnet — I know, I know. For April I decided not to make a traditional TBR list of books I wanted to read but instead give myself some prompts to guide my reading (bc I’m overwhelmed with all my choices at hand) without feeling rigid. One of the prompts was to read a book I HAD TO BUY but is still unread. So going to finally get to it. Have you read this one or watched the movie?

What are you currently reading?
I had been waiting for the perfect time to read th I had been waiting for the perfect time to read this one after Random House sent me a finished copy as TJR is a longtime auto-buy author.  I found myself caught up in all the space joy and wonder and feeling quite parasocial about the Artemis crew...I decided now was the time.

I had no idea what I was getting into.

I hadn’t really known what it was about but I didn’t really need to given its TJR & the fact it was 1980s NASA & astronauts.

But this book was about love to me - romantic love, platonic love, familial love, love for something bigger than yourself, love for the person you are & are becoming, love in the face of obstacles, love for what lights you up.

Having been invested in real life astronauts & their journey lately really made this book even more vivid to me — seeing the bonds of the crew so deeply, feeling the fragility that exists while they are doing this wondrous & crazy thing that often still boggles my mind that we can do.

And, hardest to put into words, that feeling of awe in the expansive nature & capabilities of love & the universe that I felt when a husband named a crater after his late wife which doubly helped me understand how Joan & Vanessa felt looking back at earth.

It made me sob & feel everything about being a human so deeply basically from that Frances/Joan phone call at 86% of the way through until the final words. Like could not breathe.

*might be a tiny bit spoilery so beware:

I think the way she wrote this was so impactful bc we start out knowing something bad happens &it’s not even that far when we know that some of them def won’t make it back & some are alive in peril.

I was like “oof” when *it* happens early on. But each and every chapter where we learn more about these ppl & their relationships felt agonizing & I was retroactively grieving for them more deeply every turn of the page.

The hurt and grief just compounds from a moment that was sad from the jump to something that had dug in deep to me.

To know what happens right before this mission makes the mission control bits even more excruciating. Makes the peril a character is in hit even harder than just “oh that must be scary!”. 

I loved it. I needed it bad.
The theme of Q1 was “just go with it” — it being m The theme of Q1 was “just go with it” — it being my reading whims, quirks and troubles.

Interesting things:

1. January started out rough. I only read 1 physical book and leaned very heavy into audiobooks only. At first it was distressing that my brain -thanks to current events and their effect on my mind - couldn’t work out how to sit down and read with my eyeballs but I was like…let’s just roll with it and wait for it to pass. So I waited and enjoyed a ton of audiobooks.

2. I don’t think I’ve ever read so many thrillers and mysteries in a quarter. It’s a genre I love but I’m normally quite more balanced. However, it’s what I was craving and what my brain was tolerating so…I just went with it.

3. I have always been a reader led by my moods (both how I feel reading wise and personally). This quarter was FERAL. Like the most feral mood reading ever. I couldn’t even categorize it. I’d decide on one book enthusiastically and suddenly I was like…absolutely not that.

4. I read way less fantasy than normal which was WEIRD but I felt like I also wasn’t surprised given my brain space.

5. I really started to resent people even more who said “it’s a book account stop talking about politics etc”. Babe, I’m a human who gives a shit but ALSO this has and always been an account of MY reading life. And my reading life was profoundly affected by the things that were going on in this country. Like they have been before - whether it’s been current events or things like having a kid, being depressed, slumps, etc.

6. I return to the fact that, for me, I am happiest when I pay attention to my reading whims. The end of the month I had a very specific reading mood (wanted time travel element but not a heavy time travel book) and I decided to pick up A Rip Through Time at the end of the month and I’m now halfway through book 4. Having the best time ever!!! 

Anyways, tell me how your reading life was in Q1! Fave books? Biggest surprises??
New historical fiction books on my radar for April New historical fiction books on my radar for April and I feel like there is quite a bit of variety. Any of these on your TBR? #historicalfictionbooks #historicalfiction #newbookrelease #newbookreleases
Being someone who reads based on their ever shifti Being someone who reads based on their ever shifting reading moods (sometimes very feral) makes library holds and tbrs very hard. It’s the worst when 5 weeks ago I would have gobbled the library hold up but now when the hold comes in I’m like…I think not. #readersofinstagram #readerproblems #librarylife #librarybooks #moodreader

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