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Home | Dystopia | Review: Delirium by Lauren Oliver

Review: Delirium by Lauren Oliver

March 10, 2011 - Updated May 7, 2019 // 27 Comments

Short But Sweet Summary: In the future, love is considered a deadly disease and must be controlled. A cure has been developed and a procedure is mandated to all upon high school graduation. Lena has been counting down the days until she can be cured…until she allows herself to become infected with this deliria and has the inability to see things the way they once were.

This was one of my most anticipated books for 2011 and I started feeling a wee bit nervous as glowing reviews started coming out. I could feel the Hype Monster breathing down my neck so I didn’t pick it up right away. I try not to let myself to be swept away too much into the hype of a book and keep myself grounded while I begin to read it. I want to allow myself to experience the book without the echos of its proclaimed greatness weighing heavily on my mind.

I’m going to be honest here — in the beginning of this book I was feeling like the Hype Monster had struck again.  I was finding myself bored with Lena and not really connecting with her. I was feeling like I didn’t want to be in her head anymore and that she was just falling real flat for me. I also was growing a little bit weary from predicting everything that was going to happen and from a whole slew of info about the world that didn’t even satisfy my curiosity.

BUT THEN…

I found myself completely and utterly immersed in Oliver’s prose and even feeling invested wholly in Lena’s life and her growth without even knowing it. It’s that feeling you get when you’ve been in the ocean for a while and you begin to walk out to return to your spot on the beach…only to realize you’ve drifted a half a mile down the beach without even realizing it…(and if you are anything like me…you end up walking aimlessly and awkwardly trying to find your towel). This is how I felt. Oliver’s flowing and beautiful prose became a current that ever so slightly tugged at my being until I found myself so swept up in the story without even realizing it…awestruck and completely enthralled by the beauty and profundity of these words.  The predictability lessened for me as Oliver delivered some twists that left my mouth gaping open wide enough to catch flies. I grew to feel fond of Lena, despite the fact that there still seemed to be nothing particularly stand-out about her.

The ending. Oh the ending. Let’s just say the waterworks were comparable to my experience reading If I Stay. What a cliffhanger of an ending and a hell of a last paragraph. Strong and haunted me all night as I contemplated Lena some more. The idea of love as a disease was chilling the more I thought about it. Love is one of those abstract ideas that you never really seem to be able to peg down but the absence and loss of it is oppressive. It’s complex, it’s beautiful, it can hurt like hell…but it is altogether a human experience. I think Oliver painted that picture so well…the characters languidly shuffling through life…deprived of the ability to really feel something. I remember rolling my eyes a little bit at the “insta-love” that seemed to be building between Lena and Alex based on nothing that I could see. But then I thought about it..and it made quite a bit of sense to me based on the fact that for the first time in her life she let herself really feel something.

My only gripe with the book that stayed put was the world-building. I wanted more. I did. I’m selfish and I wanted to really understand more of the history of HOW love suddenly was declared a disease and some of the finer details. I wasn’t always totally sold on the world based on what I had to work with but I’m hoping that perhaps more of this will be addressed in the next book.

My final thought: Delirium is one of those beautifully written books that will captivate you with its emotional intensity and leave you reeling until the final pages. I can’t say it is devoid of flaws — namely the world building and the clunky start for me– but I found myself unable to stop thinking about this book after reading it. I cannot wait to find out what lies ahead for this new and strong Lena. I can’t even begin to imagine what Oliver has up her sleeves but I know this for sure–it’s going to contain more dazzling prose…because that just seems to be how Oliver rolls.

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  1. Rachel @ Bookshelf Lust says

    March 10, 2011 at 5:08 am

    Delirium was definitely beautifully written, but it just never worked for me. The info dumps, Lena's boring personality, and the endless descriptions of…things not really relevant to the story killed it for me. It took me longer to read than any book has in years. You bring up a lot of good points though. And I'm very interested in the love outlawing, and family back stories. I will probably give book #2 a chance before I totally write off the series. : )

    Reply
  2. Jordyn says

    March 10, 2011 at 5:29 am

    I never read Lauren Oliver's first book, BEFORE I FALL, but I was surprised at how totally beautiful her writing style is.

    Reply
  3. Bex says

    March 10, 2011 at 8:07 am

    I just read Before I Fall and loved it! Haven't been able to get hold of Delirium yet, but i'm going to hear Lauren Oliver speak next week!

    Reply
  4. Daisy says

    March 10, 2011 at 10:11 am

    I so loved this book! After the ending I couldn't sleep from the adrenaline rush at the end. I agree with you the beginning wasn't as exciting, but I connected to Lena pretty fast, so it didn't bother me so much.
    I'd love to learn more about the history of banning love as well. Now we only have to wait a year to find out what'll happen next..

    Reply
  5. bibliophile brouhaha says

    March 10, 2011 at 1:20 pm

    I didn't care for the beginning. First 100 pages, I was like, "Ehhhhhh. . ." Then right after that it started getting good, and I was, "AhhhhhhHHHHHHHH!!!" SO glad you ended up liking it, too. Looking forward to book #2!

    Reply
  6. Nicole says

    March 10, 2011 at 2:17 pm

    That's a gorgeous cover.

    Reply
  7. Flippin' Fabulous says

    March 10, 2011 at 2:25 pm

    I have to agree. I just finished this and got my review written out and scheduled to post. The first bit of this book I wasn't understanding the hype. Lena, she lacked really. I get why now. I got why, before I read on as well. I just wasn't seeing what others claimed they saw. And then I did and it was all over. No more putting the book down. I was carrying it while walking. I can NOT wait for book #2. But can I just say the ending made me cry? Fabulous review, you really caught the essence of the book.

    Reply
  8. Ashley says

    March 10, 2011 at 3:15 pm

    Glad to hear you loved it! I've seen tons of hype, but have also heard that it doesn't live up to it. But, I loved Before I Fall, so I had to buy Delirium! 🙂

    I'm definitely excited to read it, and I love your review!

    Reply
  9. lisa :) says

    March 10, 2011 at 4:05 pm

    I think I felt the same way in terms of The Hype Monster (great term for it) but like you, the writing and the ending definitely won me over!

    Reply
  10. Jasmine (The Reading Housewives) says

    March 10, 2011 at 10:37 pm

    I totally thought the same thing about it being slower in the beginning…I was like "Uh oh!", but then all of a sudden I was sucked in! I can't wait to read the sequel even though it isn't going to be out for AGES! (lol Hype Monster)

    Reply
  11. Sharyla says

    March 11, 2011 at 2:12 am

    I've seen a couple reviews of this book and maintained a lack of interest. You've turned me. Thanks. :p

    Reply
  12. Monica says

    March 11, 2011 at 2:15 am

    Ah yes, the Hype Monster…I've learned the hard way to not take the hype too seriously. I haven't read Delirium but I like this balanced review.

    Reply
  13. Kelly F. says

    March 11, 2011 at 2:37 am

    So I'm about 250 pages into this book right now, and I completely agree with you about the beginning being boring, and not feeling a connection with Lena. It's taking me a long time to get through this one, and I want to read it to the end. It just reminds me of other books I've read like the Specials series, and I'm trying my hardest to keep with it. I'm glad to hear it got better for you, and I think I'm to the point where action starts picking up. I can't wait to see what will happen and if it changes my opinion like it did yours.

    Reply
  14. Library Gal says

    March 11, 2011 at 2:47 am

    Love this review….honest and beautifully stated

    Reply
  15. Midnyte Reader says

    March 11, 2011 at 3:04 am

    I really need to give these books a try. Thanks for your thoughts.

    Reply
  16. Jessica (Firefly Book Loft) says

    March 11, 2011 at 2:00 pm

    It has been months since I have read this book and the ending is something that I still think about often. Delirium has just really stuck with me.
    That was a fantastic review. I'm glad you ended up liking it.
    How are we ever going to wait until next year for the second one?!

    Reply
  17. Anna says

    March 12, 2011 at 12:56 am

    I love Lena and Alex! And the ending, wow, I agree it was so emotionally intense. I had to re-read it a few times just so it would sink in and I could start breathing again. It was really breathtaking. I'm glad to hear your enjoyed it, minus the world building part. I had issues with that part of the book too. I can't wait to read what happens next!

    Reply
  18. Michelle says

    March 12, 2011 at 6:49 pm

    I loved this one! Agreed that the world-building wasn't high end but for me that wasn't the most important part of the book. The concept and plot were what I ended up focussing on most. Like you I thought it was beautifully written and I'm anxious to see what happens next.

    Reply
  19. Malouuh says

    March 18, 2011 at 10:57 pm

    Ha I totally agree with the hype monster thing, I really really dislike being disappointed by a book while thinking I wouldn't have expected so much if I hadn't heard such great things about it before!
    Delirium has just been released where I live, and I can't wait to get my hand on it (even if I'm quite afraid of the hype monster too!!)

    Reply
  20. Swapna says

    March 21, 2011 at 3:23 am

    I was really skeptical about this book going on, but Lauren Oliver completely won me over. I agree with your gripe about world building, but then again I almost always feel that way with YA dystopian novels! Hopefully we'll find out more in the next book.

    Reply
  21. Swapna says

    March 21, 2011 at 3:23 am

    That's going *in*, not going on. LOL!

    Reply
  22. danielle. says

    September 7, 2011 at 12:55 am

    I loved this book, I thought the prose was beautiful and I really connected with Lena. I liked how some of the world-building was done through quotes at the beginnings of chapters; but like you, I'm eager to see more. Hopefully, Pandemonium will give us a bigger picture of what the world is like. This was a great read, that had me in tears at the end.

    Thanks for the thorough review 😀

    Reply

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The Trouble With Anna — I enjoyed this delightful little historical romance about a heroine who is carving out her independence only to find out, when her grandfather dies, that he tied her inheritance/future to marrying her best friend’s brother — a not-so-happy surprise for both of them. I could understand why they both had some guardness/walls up and I enjoyed watching them slowly start to lower them.

Mayhem and the Mortal - I’m not too far into this romantic fantasy but it is one of my most anticipated that came out last month and I’m excited to dig in more.

Hamnet — I know, I know. For April I decided not to make a traditional TBR list of books I wanted to read but instead give myself some prompts to guide my reading (bc I’m overwhelmed with all my choices at hand) without feeling rigid. One of the prompts was to read a book I HAD TO BUY but is still unread. So going to finally get to it. Have you read this one or watched the movie?

What are you currently reading?
I had been waiting for the perfect time to read th I had been waiting for the perfect time to read this one after Random House sent me a finished copy as TJR is a longtime auto-buy author.  I found myself caught up in all the space joy and wonder and feeling quite parasocial about the Artemis crew...I decided now was the time.

I had no idea what I was getting into.

I hadn’t really known what it was about but I didn’t really need to given its TJR & the fact it was 1980s NASA & astronauts.

But this book was about love to me - romantic love, platonic love, familial love, love for something bigger than yourself, love for the person you are & are becoming, love in the face of obstacles, love for what lights you up.

Having been invested in real life astronauts & their journey lately really made this book even more vivid to me — seeing the bonds of the crew so deeply, feeling the fragility that exists while they are doing this wondrous & crazy thing that often still boggles my mind that we can do.

And, hardest to put into words, that feeling of awe in the expansive nature & capabilities of love & the universe that I felt when a husband named a crater after his late wife which doubly helped me understand how Joan & Vanessa felt looking back at earth.

It made me sob & feel everything about being a human so deeply basically from that Frances/Joan phone call at 86% of the way through until the final words. Like could not breathe.

*might be a tiny bit spoilery so beware:

I think the way she wrote this was so impactful bc we start out knowing something bad happens &it’s not even that far when we know that some of them def won’t make it back & some are alive in peril.

I was like “oof” when *it* happens early on. But each and every chapter where we learn more about these ppl & their relationships felt agonizing & I was retroactively grieving for them more deeply every turn of the page.

The hurt and grief just compounds from a moment that was sad from the jump to something that had dug in deep to me.

To know what happens right before this mission makes the mission control bits even more excruciating. Makes the peril a character is in hit even harder than just “oh that must be scary!”. 

I loved it. I needed it bad.
The theme of Q1 was “just go with it” — it being m The theme of Q1 was “just go with it” — it being my reading whims, quirks and troubles.

Interesting things:

1. January started out rough. I only read 1 physical book and leaned very heavy into audiobooks only. At first it was distressing that my brain -thanks to current events and their effect on my mind - couldn’t work out how to sit down and read with my eyeballs but I was like…let’s just roll with it and wait for it to pass. So I waited and enjoyed a ton of audiobooks.

2. I don’t think I’ve ever read so many thrillers and mysteries in a quarter. It’s a genre I love but I’m normally quite more balanced. However, it’s what I was craving and what my brain was tolerating so…I just went with it.

3. I have always been a reader led by my moods (both how I feel reading wise and personally). This quarter was FERAL. Like the most feral mood reading ever. I couldn’t even categorize it. I’d decide on one book enthusiastically and suddenly I was like…absolutely not that.

4. I read way less fantasy than normal which was WEIRD but I felt like I also wasn’t surprised given my brain space.

5. I really started to resent people even more who said “it’s a book account stop talking about politics etc”. Babe, I’m a human who gives a shit but ALSO this has and always been an account of MY reading life. And my reading life was profoundly affected by the things that were going on in this country. Like they have been before - whether it’s been current events or things like having a kid, being depressed, slumps, etc.

6. I return to the fact that, for me, I am happiest when I pay attention to my reading whims. The end of the month I had a very specific reading mood (wanted time travel element but not a heavy time travel book) and I decided to pick up A Rip Through Time at the end of the month and I’m now halfway through book 4. Having the best time ever!!! 

Anyways, tell me how your reading life was in Q1! Fave books? Biggest surprises??
New historical fiction books on my radar for April New historical fiction books on my radar for April and I feel like there is quite a bit of variety. Any of these on your TBR? #historicalfictionbooks #historicalfiction #newbookrelease #newbookreleases
Being someone who reads based on their ever shifti Being someone who reads based on their ever shifting reading moods (sometimes very feral) makes library holds and tbrs very hard. It’s the worst when 5 weeks ago I would have gobbled the library hold up but now when the hold comes in I’m like…I think not. #readersofinstagram #readerproblems #librarylife #librarybooks #moodreader

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